Tuesday, February 2, 2010



Have you ever waited with joyful anticipation for the day to come when the person who hurt you and your family the MOST in the whole wide world got their comeuppance?

I sure have. I've thought about this very thing for many a day.

For several years now if you want to know the truth.

So why is it then, now that the day has finally arrived, do I feel so incredibly crummy on the inside? A day I believed would bring me some peace has only left me feeling empty and wanting...

This afternoon I was gently reminded by a loving friend to remember this one simple, but profound, thought...

"If there but by the Grace of God go I..."

Today I'm grateful and incredibly thankful the mistakes and poor choices I have made during my life have not been so grievous that they cost me all I ever held dear...

Blessings to you as you enjoy walking in your own two shoes...


Unknown said...

Prayers for you & peace at this time, Rebecca. I always say that, too ... There but by the grace of God go I ...

I am sorry that someone has hurt you & your family.

Hugs of love,

Anonymous said...

Hi Rebecca! Oh, Dear One, your heart is showing! We've all been there and since you belong to God, He has given you the soft heart you have. He's making you more and more like His son! You're a ministry to me!
Love and you are a sweetie,
Shelia ;)

Debra@CommonGround said...

This is such a hard thing to go through. God taught me about forgiveness when I went through a really really devestating time of betrayal.(at a church, no less) I had to let it go, otherwise the upset would literally have killed me.
Blessings, dear Rebecca

Pat @ My Tattered Elegance said...

God holds you in the palm of his hand, you lean on him and let him heal your sweet heart. No one can hurt you unless you let them, so don't give them that power. Your power is to love, like you do here on your blog, ministering to your little peeps. Just remember, dear friend, you are loved so much.
Hugs & love, Pat

Karen said...

We've all been hurt and had a hard time forgiving... and forgetting (if that is possible). Thank you for your posting. It has struck a nerve with me. I hope that you will feel better soon. God is good.. and thankfully forgiving.
Blessings and hugs,
Ladybug Creek

Anonymous said...

As a Christian I have never thought or felt it joyful for someone to get what they deserve.
That's not what Jesus taught.

My entire family has shunned me because I took a stand for Him.
If I didn't love them so much, it wouldn't hurt as bad as it does.
As much as I love my family, I love my Jesus more.

I feel truly sad for anyone who would choose to be in bondage to unforgiveness.
It's not so much of God's grace as it is God's unconditional love and forgiveness.

He died for those who hurt us too.

Deanna said...

Dear Rebecca, God bless and comfort you. You're human and it will be the holy Spirit that helps you with whatever healing is needed in your life. Don't be too hard on yourself...God will help you put this in perspective and help you process all of what needs filed away or put to rest.
He makes you to lie down in green pastures. That's a beautiful and pleasant place to lie down.

Connie said...

I truly don't know how I would feel, but I don't think I'd feel anything but pity for them, sugar.

I try to live my life as if the Lord is looking over my shoulder but I fail miserably at times and am so imperfect it brings me to my knees often. I understand what you mean, chick, I truly do. I don't want to revel in someone else's bad fortune.


Sandra said...

Sending you ((BIG HUGS)) sweety. I don't know what happened but I do feel that this is a very heartfelt post. I am so sorry that someone hurt you and your family. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you, my friend.

Anonymous said...

Ahhhh sweet tenderharted Rebecca,
we have all been betrayed at one time or another, but the most important thing to remember is forgivness, that's what our forgiving God would want us to do...even when its the hardest thing you will do in your life, but in the end you will feel the peace in your heart!!! wishing you peace and happiness sweetie...

Lisa said...

I think as much as I am like yo, until you can forgive you will not feel better. And we have to forgive for ourselves, not for those we forgive. I will pray you have peace in this.
Hugs and prayers, Lisa

joanne said...

Praying that you find Grace and peace....

Miss Rhea said...

I totally Get it. When my ex husband left me for a 20 year old, ( sorry, TMI ) I really wanted to see God's justice for the adultery and hurt it caused myself and my family. But last year (7 years later ), he called, wanting to "chat" about his now failed 2nd marriage with his young wife. Suddenly, I just felt sad for Him, and even her. Pain is never good, and The Lord has Blessed me so Mightily with my current Christian Forever Hubby. It just isn't the same. It is HUMAN to want the Righteousness of Justice from the Lord. Personal revenge is different. So, I really understand how you feel. I think He waits till our hearts have softened before allowing the effects of their sins sometimes to manifest, more for Us than the person that caused the pain to begin with. Sorry that you went through the hurt, but Grateful for what Our Lord has done in your life as a result, you are TRULY a Blessing to everyone around you :) :) Hugs :)

Anonymous said...

I used to want to see "justice" done to a certain "in-law" but I have learned over the years that we all are guilty of something & we all hurt someone whether intentional or not. So-o-o-o.... I figure the job of retribution is too big for me.... I let God handle it!! I don't even want to know.

Dolores said...

My thoughts, prayers and hugs are with you as you've experienced such hurt.
But your love and faith shines through and leaves a blessing to all your friends.

Debbie-Dabble Blog and A Debbie-Dabble Christmas said...

I am truly sorry that you ave felt such hurt in your life. We have all "been there'. My personal thoughts on this subject is that everyone will be judged by a much higher power than myself!

Janine Claire Robinson said...

Just reading through the comments, my heart is so struck by God's outpouring of love and encouragement to you through those around you. So often when we really hurt, we just want to feel God's "physical" arms around us. Reading your post today and the comments of many who love you ... I get the picture that precious Jesus is holding out many open arms to comfort you at this time, because you own HIS heart. May you feel uplifted from all the pain into the freedom of His precious love. BIG hugs xoxoxox Janine

Jo said...

It sounds as if you have a good heart, and your conscience will not let you enjoy "sweet revenge". Be happy that you are a kind-hearted person.

Forgiveness is for us, not for the people who have wrong us.

You have a good spirit.

Unknown said...

Hi Sweetie!
You must be reading my mind!

For a couple of years now we have been dealing with a situation and people that are harming others in their actions. Its is hard to sit and watch and NOT want harm to come to them. And not be frustrated that others see and know and have done nothing about it.

But...GOD keeps reminding me that HE see's their inner hearts and will deal with it in HIS way. How often have I wanted to lash out and fix it. I am patiently waiting for GOD to deal with it. God has also reminded me over and over I too am a sinner just like them..but have been forgiven much.

Blessings to your my dear friend!

Char said...

Rebecca, none of us is perfect, we make humanly mistakes. Sometimes we talk without thinking, and once it's out there, it's there forever. You can't grab it and take it back. We have hurt someone, perhaps with intention, perhaps not. I can say that I try never to hold anger or hate within me. I don't wish anyone pain because that can eat you up inside and damage your health. It's not easy to find the good in someone who has wronged you, but like you stated in your post, you got what you were waiting for, I don't know if that was justice or not, but you didn't feel better. So, that having been said, what is the answer? I think it's different for each one of us. We all need each other in some way, depend on each other, live on this earth together, we are all a part of a greater good called humanity. I don't think it's suppose to be easy, but we need to open our hearts, try and understand, take what we can from the experience and leave the rest behind. The Good Lord above will take care of the rest and see that what needs to be done, is done. I don't know what happened to you, but am hopeful that you will pick yourself up and move on. You are a strong person and have a large heart, peace be with you sweet friend, we all need some forgiveness at one point or another, Char

Barb said...

Rebecca, thank you so much for this post! It is very timely for me. I don't know what to say except....I truly needed to read this!

God bless you,

Laura said...

Dear Rebecca-

Letting something go is so hard for me- I tend to stew.

This post is an important lesson for us all.

Thank you-


fannipauline said...

Hi Rebecca - That is a saying I was raised on. My grandparents raised me and that is something I heard many times. If I hurt someone without meaning to It hurts my heart and I have a problem forgiving my ownself. I try to always forgive when I am hurt as I know how bad it feels. To not forgive eats away at my heart. I am working with a dear friend now that has a hard time forgiving - she doesn't feel she will ever forgive them, but with God walking beside us - anything and everything is possible. I know He wants us to forgive those that hurt us as He has forgiven us. To forgive to me is a devine and awesome feeling....I had an inlaw that hurt me over and over again, but I tried to keep loving and forgiving. Finally it took over 40 years and she came to love me and I took care of her when no one else would...She passed away 10 years ago and I was able to not hold any grudges at all..........it was my mother-in-law and my husband was her only child.......It was extremely hard, but I don't regret having always treated her with love and forgiveness.....Blessings, Pauline

Cottage Rose said...

Hi Rebecca; I don't think that there is not one of us who has not been there.. I know I have.... Praise you Lord for you Grace.... have a great week...


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